Where the mountain river meets the ocean, I stood on the shore, my feet sinking into the sand. After a 45 minute jog along the coast of the Baie des Chaleurs in Maria Quebec, I began my yoga postures to regain my breath and stretch out my muscles. I come to this place for vacation every year and my morning run is a gift to myself. While here, there are no competing priorities that consume my precious running time.
I inhale power as I open my arms wide to the sky and gather the energy of the sea, the sun, the earth and the wind. I exhale peace as I bring my hands down in prayer position and rest them at my heart, I bow my head in reverence and gratitude. Namaste.
Last summer I had to walk the shore rather than jog it as I was recovering from a crushed tibial plateau and torn MCL. As I grounded myself today, I recalled how grateful I was last year just to be able to walk at all as I had been on bed rest for 6 weeks, followed by 4 months in a full leg brace.
Today, almost fully recovered I jogged and allowed that beautiful post-run feeling to expand within me. Although the injury was the result of a freak accident, my amazing recovery is not a fluke. I attribute it to all of the professional healers on my journey who helped succeed.
My doctor Sevan Ortaaslan, my physiotherapist, Jennifer Pullen, osteopath Elaine Carle, naturopath Toni Pigeon, reflexologist Veronica Butler, shaman Debbie Must and my athletic therapist Greg Lothian.
Each one of these special souls has dedicated their lives to helping other’s succeed.
Today, I repost my blog of May 2017 entitled Running Perceptions and Revelation in honour and gratitude for each of them and all of the other professional healers who are sharing their gifts and talents in service to others.
Running Perceptions and Revelations
I love to jog. It is a solitary pursuit that brings contentment to my body, mind, and spirit. One of my favourite places to indulge in this pleasure is along the Baie des Chaleurs coastline in Maria, Quebec – my father’s ancestral home since the first of us arrived from Scotland in 1755. I step out of the old, white shingled farmhouse with its green tin roof and begin with a walk down the long, tree-lined driveway to the seashore.
The unwelcome disturbances of my monkey mind are muted as I shift into the moving meditation. It is a cultivated pause from my ongoing thinking about my business and the other things that make up the design of my life, like the pattern on a bolt of hand-woven silk: beautiful, intricate, occasionally complicated by a dropped thread.
I warm up with knee lifts, butt kicks, and a fast walk down that ancient driveway towards the sea. I admire the pink water lilies luxuriating on the pond like divas awaiting Monet, the lock of handsome bulrushes swaying in the wind as though waving me onward. I notice the tiny steps of fungus growing on the dead birch and I am suddenly amused by my own whimsical thought that if I were a little elf, I would climb them.
The end of the driveway is the portal. There I enter my runner’s trance. My breath easily syncs with the lapping waves as I prepare to blend with nature for my one hour of devotion to the run and its promise.
I take the path heading east along the breakwater, which is usually shared by joggers and cyclists but also serves as the wide shoulder for traffic. However, at this early hour, I am alone. The glorious morning sun over the sea, an empress presiding over all that she warms, casts white rays through the gathering clouds onto the water to reflect a misty glow back towards the sky and to me. It feels ethereal.
The beach below is constantly gifted by waves arriving with agates, red jasper, quartzes, and sea glass – all beachcombers gems but hard on the bare feet of those out for a casual stroll. The shore is adorned with driftwood, some of it is roots as huge as tractor wheels and some is twigs the size of tiny nails – all equally weathered into a soft gray. The waves are rough this morning, delivering reams of seaweed resembling loosely tangled balls of dark yarn. They emit the distinct scent of the sea crashing upon the sand.
Along the Chic-Choc Mountains, the sun brings out many shades of green upon the canopy of trees. It also throws dark shadows that tell of winds ushering shock white clouds into the area – giants that dwarf the mountains as they join those already assembled over the sea. This is the kind of epic view that does more than take my breath away: it inspires me, empowers me, makes me believe in God.
In reverence, I take up the slow jog and my spirit connects to the earth and sea. I think of my ancestors walking this land before me. I wonder what words they used to describe the view and if it made them feel the same as it does me: simultaneously humble and mighty. I think of their footprints and I wonder if mine are touching theirs.
I pull cool air deep into my lungs. The sound of my footfall is made richer by its splashing in shallow puddles.
Nature seems to want me there as the weather conditions adapt for my comfort. The clouds grow fuller and ease the sun’s glare so I no longer have to squint. The heavier clouds arrive with a breeze that cools me as I pick up my pace. Soon the clouds release a warm summer mist that gives way to plump droplets as though cued by my hot skin needing to be quenched. A few minutes later, rainwater drips off my ponytail over my shoulders, then wicks off my fingertips.
I loved this feeling of being baptized by sea mist and summer rain. It makes me feel cleansed, my burdens washed into the sea.
About half-way through my run, I reach my destination: a small park at the edge of the village bordered by a tiny cabin that had belonged to my first Canadian ancestors. I am proud of the place and the sign on the lawn that relates the story of The Mowatt House, the first auberge on the coast. How ironic though that a humble cabin boasts such an important place in the local history and tourist trade.
Turning around to head back, I start running against the wind just as the first wave of fatigue hits me. The road that was all mine is now filled with morning traffic. The sea mist and rain that had been so welcomed now creates the spray of cars and trucks. It’s an assault to the senses to now smell the tires and dirty road as wet grimy speckles of mud coat my face and torso with every car and truck that passes. My shoes, now soaked and heavy, cause blisters through my socks and make me worry that I will twist an ankle as my feet slosh around inside them.
I am determined not to quit despite the suddenly unfavourable weather. The difficult conditions drew me out of my reverie and caused me to realize that the challenges faced by runners are like those faced by business owners. To distract myself from the discomfort, I muse about the similarities between physically running and operating a business. Maybe that’s why they call it running a business! As the comparisons arise, like the waves crashing on the beach just below, I commit them to memory to write later.
I am jolted out of my thoughts by a car directly approaching me. As I hop out of the way, I gesture my annoyance at the driver. With the grimy rain in my eyes, it would have been easy not to have seen his car. I could have been hurt. I was irritated at the driver for distracting me from my pace, focus and creative thinking. It took me a short while to regain my groove.
A few moments later, it happens again: another driver distracting me. This one pulls up right next to me, unrolling the window and slowing to a crawl.
Really, buddy? I think. Have you not noticed that I am running here? Did you not think for one moment that I maybe don’t want to be bothered?
I ignore him, but he doesn’t go away! He continues to cruise alongside me.
“Yes?” I finally snap, turning my angry, wet face to look directly at the guy.
“Have you noticed it’s raining?” says a man who is not actually a stranger at all, but my husband. “I’ve come to get you out of the rain. Get in.”
“Oh, hi,” I say on an exhale, my irritation also releasing slightly. “I’m good.” Not wanting to waste further breath on the conversation, I wave him off with no intention of giving up my run.
“Really?” he says, looking baffled about me. “Are you kidding?”
“I’m fine, almost done,” I insist.
“Ohhhh Kayyyy” he says, shaking his head, knowing there’s no point in arguing with me, as he drives off.
My driveway is now visible in the near distance, marking the day’s finish line. There’s no time to get back into that previous wonderful headspace. With the weather getting worse and fatigue setting into my bones and muscles as though in lockstep, I’m irritated at having my last stretch interrupted. What were the odds of it happening twice?
The sky turns stormier. Low thunder brews in the distance, while lightning sporadically glows behind the dark clouds. I dig deep to find the strength to pick up my pace. With that last surge of energy, I also have a flash of clarity. I realize that the first driver who interrupted me was also my husband. Knowing my route, he had come out to meet me, and when I did not recognize him during his first drive by me, he turned around and came back to try to give me a lift again. He was not a distracted rude driver but my concerned husband trying to anticipate my needs. I was so focused on my run that I didn’t recognize my own car or my own husband!
I reach the top of the driveway physically feeling and no doubt looking like the soppy, limp seaweed that rolled up on the beach. Body fatigued but mind and spirit soaring because I had achieved my goal, despite the difficult conditions and interruptions. Then, I have a flashback to something I always mention in my conflict resolution workshops: We judge others based on the impact they have on us. If the impact is in any way negative, we naturally assume that the intention was equally negative.
When an unidentified driver distracted me from the experience that I was enjoying, it really annoyed me. When I realized that the driver was my husband arriving to get me out of the rain, my perception completely changed along with my attitude towards the situation. Irritation gave way to gratitude.
In other words, when my perception changed, so did my feelings about the experience. My mood and subsequently my approach both improved once I had the full picture.
With a last burst of energy, I break into a full sprint up the driveway. My thoughtful husband and two beautiful sons step out onto the covered porch to welcome me back. They laugh with me as I pumped my arms up and down, cheering for myself.